Journey of a Soul, Chapter 1, Section 2


Sin is self-hate, precisely because it is the conscious or unconscious rejection of God’s love.  We inherently know that God is perfection and love, and that everything that comes from God is therefore all perfect and good.  If something or someone we perceive as coming from God is seemingly imperfect or not good, it is only because we are wrong in thinking that said thing or person comes from God or, on the contrary, because that person or thing does come from God and we are just not seeing that person or thing as we should.

Many people seek the win lotteries, and ask God for the right numbers to win that money. However, we also know that many lottery winners end up doomed because of their win, and often come to regret winning.  Still others suffer harm as a result of winning, or perhaps doom themselves in falling to the temptations which only their prior lack of funds previously prevented.  Thus, what we perceive as a good, winning, may actually be the worst thing that could happen to us and so, what we perceive as a good from God becomes a bad which will not come from God.

Suppose someone comes into our life to stop us from an addiction. While we may see that person as meddling in our affairs and annoying, that person may actually come from God to help us. Therefore, we can conclude that, while God is all love and all good, our relative perception and appreciation of that fact can often be far from accurate.

Since God is all love and all good, then it stands to reason that He is all mercy as well, for His unconditional and perfectly just love would lead to a mercy beyond our own human capacity to understand or appreciate.  In fact, it is a fairly certain fact that we would be far less merciful with ourselves and others than God is with us, not to mention far less patient.

The devil, who is the embodiment of rejection of God’s love, no longer wanted to serve but to be served, and came to see himself as deserving to be more than God.   When one rejects God and looks to become one’s own god, one inherently rejects God’s perfect love in favor of one’s twisted self-love.  What is ironic, however, is that self-love without God is actually self-hate because any love without God cannot be love at all but, rather, its opposite, which is hate.

The devil is master of lies, and the last thing he wants is for us to embrace our inherent goodness and sacred mission to be saints in service of God.  He wants us to see such a mission as misguided, foolish, impossible, delusional, and even counterproductive. The devil wants us to see ourselves as unfit for God’s team and, therefore, more fit for the devil’s team.  That second team, however, like all of the devil’s lies, is based more on  hate than love.  The devil wants us to sabotage our inherent goodness through sin in much the same way as a student encouraged by parents to study more to raise a B to a seemingly impossible A might fail exams to excuse himself as incapable of that A with all of its apparent expectations and burdens.

God’s Divine Mercy tells us that we should love and trust God so much that we will gladly dare to seek God, to rediscover God, despite the fact that we do not deserve God through our imperfection and sin.  In the end, serving God is more about allowing Him to use us as very imperfect tools of love instead of obsessing one whether we deserve to be His tools in the first place. The less we love ourselves, the less we will hate ourselves, and the more we will be able and free to love and serve God and others.

Copyright, Gabriel Garnica 2016